Yesterday, I was blessed with my very first niece. She came in at 6 pounds, 3 ounces, 19 inches long and at 156 am on October 01, 2011. She's perfect.
And I can't help but be just a little sad. This is where I really struggle with me. I struggle with the singleness, the baby-less/childless part right now. I'm the of the only few left of my girl friends who isn't married/seriously dating and or have kids. This even includes some of my guy friends. I was asked a few weeks ago if I thought I was ready for kids. I don't know if I'm ready but I know I want one. I'm at that point in my life where I'm ready to start a family, get married, have a baby.
I believe everything happens for a reason. People come in and out of your life for a purpose, to make an impact and to even possibly change you. But I really find it hard to believe this is what he has planned. For me to be 29, single and have to WATCH everyone have their dreams come true before them and I'm struggling to get by and sometimes, to get up everyday.
I love my three nephews and my wonderful, little niece and I always, always will. But, I, at some point, want one of my own.
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